I can’t really explain how I feel but numb.
It’s like these days I don’t even want to talk to anyone or see anyone because I feel like I’ll just be a downer next to them. I feel like I can’t meet anyone’s expectations of me, may it be as a friend, a potential lover, a sister, or daughter- and all of this scares me. I know that people see me as a strong person who is unaffected by everything, but my strong front is merely a way for me to hide my feelings. I’m honestly not as strong and independent as people think, and I know that one day I might end up crashing down. And crashing down hard.